Entry 5

Hello blog... 15 years have past since I lost Christian.
I no longer hear his sweet words from the night on the balcony. It is all just a flash of memory. Cyrano lived through the battle. i continued to keep the farewell letter near my heart.

Cyrano had continued to visit me but is growing old and ill. I met with him under a tree. not knowing that would be the last. He read the goodbye letter. In the voice a remember from the balcony. It had all become clear. All I had known was wrong.

I know everything all along it was Cyrano's soul bleeding from Christian's beautiful shell. my life had been a lie i wasn't in love with the man I thought I was it was all staged I had been in love with Cyrano all along. I was confused and hurt Cyrano had lied a beautiful lie an had me convinced Christians soul was his own while all along it was Cyrano being the brain of the operation. Now, 15 years have passed all the while thinking the loving words had died with my husband was wrong Cyrano had been here all along. Lies.

As my dear Cyrano became delirious and fading into death he fought off "enemies" and feel back into Le bret. I kissed his forehead once more and asked what he shall take to heaven he replied " My white Plume." now i am alone lost both my husband and the true soul o love, Cyrano. i have live a life not commonly lived. lies, and love filled each corner now i know all truth an have felt all love, and loss.


now i am left with grief.

XO for the final time,
Roxane... De Bergerac

Entry 4

Christian it has become clear to me. I Love you.

CHRISTIAN: And now? 
Me: Your true self has prevailed over your outer appearance. I now love you for your soul alone. 
CHRISTIAN: Oh, Roxane! 
me: . . . But you can be happy now: your thoughts outshine your face. Your handsomeness was what first attracted me, but now that my eyes are open I no longer see it! 

Your soul Christian, that is what I love. your sweet words and letter speak the truth outshine your body and human spirt. it is beyond that. 
I had gone to the battle field, I could wait no longer to see my Christian. though to my dismay i discover the Spaniards are coming to attack an kill the cadets under Cyrano. It is over. as i looked into those eyes of my love, I struggled to read the soul that sang the sweet and delicate words which I had loved fully now.  I saw past the beauty and loved his soul.

Then, my dear readers, the worst came. as Cyrano was to tell me whatever he was "feeling" 
I heard it. 
Heard the piercing sound that rang straight to me heart and penetrated my soul. 
The gunshot. Soon Le bret had told Cyrano it was my love. Dying. My Christian was brought in I collapsed on him. Cyrano knelt down and whispered something about me choosing him but i was, am distraught over my loss. widowed before exploring love and marriage fully. Crushed. 
Nestled near christians heart was a farewell letter for me. I fainted filled with sadness and grief. 

RIP my lovely Christian. 

I will remember you and treasure your letters and poems eternally. 
xo,
Roxanne 

Entry 3

Hey Guys!

So my cousin, Cyrano, is a true hero! He saved our dear bakery owner from hanging himself! Cyrano happened to find him and cut him down so now he is my steward. what a kind and true heart Cyrano is! self-less and always kind! so glad i have him to tell my silly love stories and life with!

Christian's letters have been absolutely breath taking! They are so filled with beautiful loving words i cant stand to be with out him! He has consumed my eyes with his looks, my mind with his words, and my soul with his soul. Oh I am So in love!


"Falling in love may one of the greatest feelings ever. [I have read] There is an actual chemical process that happens to a person who is falling in love. All of the senses have a greater intensity. Colors seem brighter, sounds more resonant and smells more powerful when you are in love. When you are with your lover there is no greater feeling in the world, and when you're not you spend all your time thinking of each other. Falling in love is truly an awesome feeling."

I want every girl in the world to feel this way! 

I tried to trick De Guiche in order to keep my love safe, it worked for a moment. I suggested that he leave behind Cyrano and his cadets, including Christian! I have really used my brain on this one! Though, Cyrano can never know i am trying to keep him from his chance to go off to war. But the heart wants what the heart wants, and mine wants Christian, and i will do everything in my power to protect him. 

Christian came to visit me and as Cyrano had told me, i planned not to question him with meaningless inquiries. Instead, i choose to make him speak about his love for me, impromptu. 

Though you will not believe how he answered me. I asked why he loved me and all he could say was I love you. i love you i love you i love you. meaningless 3 words when used over and over. Why couldn't he speak the way he had in the letters and poems he sent to me why could he only repeat, i love you i love you i love you!  
 
His lack of words to fill me with love had left me broken, I craved the sweet nectar of romantic sentences from his beautiful lips and mouth. Why must he act so idiotically with me i know he is more intelligent than that! Later in the night I was beckoned to my window by Christians kind voice.

He spoke of the sweet heart filled words like before in the letters, why couldn't he have said these things earlier!? though his voice didn't sound quite his own, I know it was my true love in my heart. In the end i decided to kiss him, he climbed up to me and we had the spark of love when our lips met, soft and sweet. 

I have done something crazy! a capuchin had come to deliver a letter from De Guiche and.... I lied as I read the letter aloud... I read it as saying he ordered the capuchin to marry me and Christian on the spot! yes! I lied to become married! Though as we walked out from our matrimony De guiche informed me that all going off to war and say farewell to my new husband! my trick did not prevail. my love will be in danger once more.

With a sad goodbye I had Cyrano promise me to order Christian to write me everyday . He will... I hope... I will miss him. I hope he stays safe with Cyrano. Life has gotten harder... 

xo, 
Roxanne  

Entry #2

Entry 2

I have found the love i have only dreamt of finding! I have seen my soul mate we spoke with our eyes. I have gone to speak with my cousin Cyrano. I have told him of my loves beauty, and intelligence. i found a soul mate. his name is Christian.

Cyrano and I have our past. We grew up together, and as a child I would act as his mother to bandage his wounds. he was my friend, my best friend, he was nothing but kind to me and was always support for me.  but when i told him of my new found love he seemed off kilter, it was odd.



Our  hearts, Christian, are made for each other. oh how I love you my sweet.

I have never felt a love so great my soul swells with love my dearest. Nothing can break our love.

Though I am afraid for Christian because Cyrano’s company is composed of hot-blooded Gascons who pick fights with anyone foreign. Christian, my love, is not a Gascon. I have asked Cyrano to protect him, and he being the brotherly as always has agreed. I have faith in Cyrano to protect my other half I hope he feels this swelling love I feel now. 

I received a letter most presently from my love, its wording was that of true love. Filled with such beauty and sweet words that I am only more sure of my love for Christian. 

xo, 
Roxanne

This photo shows my love for romantics and for poetry and writing.

Entry 1

Entry 1

Hi readers! This blog is to give you the insight on my crazy life! I am a smart young woman in De Bergerac and live a fairly pleasant. I love poetry and the romantic nature of men. thats enough about me! Let me tell you about my life!

Recently i was courted by a man by the name of De Guiche, he is of high ranks in the guard no doubt. Though i am aware he is a married man, he wishes to marry me to his lower, Valvert, so he may still have his way with me. This is not love nor the way love should be.

I found this poem that I feel shows the love I wish to find.

Your beauty overwhelms me
As I wrap my arms around you
I press your softness tight
Great passion fills my inner being
I'm captured in your embrace
Your eyes control my very soul
The touch of your lips, heaven
Forever frozen in time
All else fades into nothing

Someone to see me as beautiful and come to wrap their loving arms around me. I want to feel the passion of love and beauty with another soul to become one and share a soul. I want to feel as one with another true love to embalm or fate forever. 

I did see a man who may have caught my eye. A beauty in my mind.

I also saw duel almost take place between a man with large nose, my own cousin, Cyrano. what an interesting time I've had. 

xo, 
Roxanne